Friday, February 17, 2012

The post I never thought I would have to write

Many are the plans in a human heart, but it is the LORD'S purpose that prevails.
Proverbs 19:21


Deep breath...here we go. The post I've been dreading. I was told this week that I have breast cancer. It was a complete shock (as I am sure it generally would be for most people). My family and I are doing a lot of praying and processing and will know more details in the coming weeks. This verse is one that I have never read before and it speaks volumes to me right now. I have many plans for my life and not a single one of them included getting cancer at 34 years old. All I know is that this is what God is allowing in my life right now. Do I like it ? Not a bit. It's really terrible to watch your husband and 9 year old cry together while trying to work through finding God's peace. But it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. I hate the thought of sickness, recovery, treatment, and whatever else I will have to walk through. But it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. All of these verses that I have been searching through these last few months will be my comfort. I serve a God of peace and of faithfulness. I serve a God who is weeping with my family this week. I serve a God who knows the feeling of heartache. I will praise him in this midnight hour of my life out of love and obedience. I will praise Him because He is my Redeemer and Healer. I will praise Him because he has called me by name.  I will not fear.


"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you."
Love and blessings.

8 comments:

  1. I love that verse, it is one of the ones I memorized in preparing for childbirth this time last year. God is faithful. I will be praying for you and your family. Please let me know if there is anything I can ever do to help you in any way. You are very special to me and we will add you to our family prayer time. Lots of LOVE to you!
    (I deleted my comment because of a typo!)

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  2. I did not know you had a blog until Carrie sent me over here tonight. You have posted so many wonderful verses and words of truth in the days leading up to this. I know that God is going to use them again.
    There really is nothing to say in the first days of a diagnosis except that I care. I will lift you up in prayer for physical strength, and that you will be reminded, every moment, that we serve a risen Savior.

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  3. Thank you, friends. I appreciate your kind words and your prayers.

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  4. Oh, I am sitting here crying now. Tears for what you may have to go through but tears of great comfort, too, for I know how close God is going to hold you to his chest during this time. I've never been through breast cancer, but I can tell you the time I was facing open heart surgery I felt like a big dark cloud was hanging over my life. It was difficult, but my relationship with God was so close and sweet during that time. It also brought Jason and me closer. I know your faith in Christ will pull you through this.
    I know many, many breast cancer survivors - including my grandmother. I have no doubt you will pull through this and be a stronger person in the end. In your weakness, you will find that He is your strength.
    Adding you to my daily prayer list.
    Love, Heather Willis

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  5. "....The flame shall not consume you" awesome.

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  6. My wonderful friend sent this to me the day after I was diagnosed. It is Isaiah 43:1-2. Isn't it great?

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  7. Heather-thank you for your kindness and prayers,

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  8. Laura, just wanted you to know that I too was diagnosed with breast cancer at 34 and I am still here. Isn't it amazing how God has already been preparing you for this journey. You can trust our Daddy...He loves you so much! I will be praying for you and your family. I won't lie...there will be really hard days ahead but but you already know Who to go to for peace, comfort, strength, and courage. I love the verse you closed your blog with! I am here if I can help. Love you!

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