Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Ponytails and returning to rest

Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. For You, Lord, rescued me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling. I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living. I believed, even when I said, "I am severely afflicted." Psalm 116:7-8

I've been "sitting" on this verse for several days now. Working it out, praying it out. I felt like God was telling me to wait. I even sat down and typed the verse 2 days ago and stopped. And then tonight I had a "yippee!" moment. My hair, after losing it almost 2 years ago to chemo, is finally long enough to be in a (very) little pony tail right now as I type this. So not a big deal to many but a really big deal to me. It's not about the hair. Ok, so maybe it's a little about the hair. But it's more the evidence of my healing, both emotional and physical, over this past year. It has been frustrating at times, feeling like I should be completely over everything but still having moments when I haven't quite felt 100% like my normal self. But every day I get a little closer. And then just like that, I have a ponytail! :)

So, this verse really sums up where I am right now. I feel like my soul is returning to rest after a long and tumultuous season of loss. My Lord chose to heal me and for that I am more thankful than I have the words to express.

My husband and I can talk about the future without fear. My children laugh until their stomachs hurt.  We are walking in the land of the living. And even though I always believed, even in my darkest of days, now I can return to rest.

I hope and pray that you can return to rest as well, my friends. You may not be in a season of rest right now. But hold on, dear one. Your season of rest is coming. Just keep believing in the God that rescues you and upholds you with His right hand.

Much love and blessings.